THIS IS ANOTHER CRAP SELF-INDULGENT POST THAT YOU PROB DONT NEED TO READ.
edit: thecitysong.tumblr.com
the general mood around me is surprisingly calm and quiet - dcfc music and surfing random tumblrs (which are VERY interesting btw, haha) and looking at quotable quotes which seem to apply and photos of muted colours.
today i was sad, jaded and lethargic, the moment i stepped into school i wanted to go home so badly because there were only tests and pe and gp before the entire school day ended so i was just really looking forward to going home. i wanted to hide at home away from people and judgment, away from people whom you have to meet but not comfortably, people who are studying so hard that makes me pale in comparison and inept cos i can't handle time; people who always are in the know or trying to get into it; people whom you need to compete with or constantly convince yourself so you won't feel lousy... it's not every day that i have this kind of energy to handle people and accept the way they are you know...while demanding that people live with the way i am. i guess all i really need to lay down is pride... being stripped of everything but still rich in the lord.
on top of all the negative feelings synonymous to sian i felt mildly disgusted with myself cos during gp just for the sake of gp i had to argue that the writer was being too assertive in imposing his Christian beliefs and taking them as the norm when they are not; because i know that's the truth and the truth ought to be taught; knowing that science isn't the answer to everything but dismissing that line of argument.
and blogger you suck once i figure out tumblr and get accustomed to it i'll be moving. BYEBYEEEEE.
