today my teacher smsed me to tell me i got 52 for piano which meant that i..fffffffailed, because now the passing mark is 60. wasn't too sad because i expected it from all the little effort i put in but i guess my state of mind is a complete surrender for the moment and thanking God for the other things that He has given me, because I can't actually let this one failure obliterate the blessings He has bestowed upon me...like the other prayers - my family's financial problems, happiness and things like that. and please do not come up to me and talk to me or encourage me because it'll all be futile haha, i've left the issue aside to move on with other more important things like my spiritual walk and my slipping studies and it's not something that haunts me so it's okay until someone brings it up again so i suppose that time i'll slip into the vicious cycle of self-pity and comparison which is just pointless.
in other news my baby niece was down with h1n1 so i was really worried... fasted from solid food and prayed today to intercede for special grace and i suppose if the kid is fine i wouldn't mind like failing piano exam 300 times over alright hyperbole i dont have this kind of money -.-
and wah piang the chem timed assignment is damn difficult?!?!?!!!! jingwei and youhao still come and ask me to finish in 30 minutes -,,,- but okay i attribute to my degenerating chem ability! )::
AND blogger is super ugly. CAN YOU LIKE FIX YOURSELF?!
