spirit touch your church, stir the hearts of man. revive us Lord, with your passion once again. i want to care for others like Jesus cared for me, let your reign fall upon me.
i came to a conclusion:
in your life, you spend all your time pursuing wealth and all the material luxury and all the fun, and you think this is your purpose in life. but no one really knows the purpose of your life right? all you are doing is speculating what might be the purpose. it's not that pursuing knowledge and things like that isn't good, it's good. but is that all you really want to do in your life? one day if you are stricken with something at the high times of your life that is going to rob your life away you're going think, hey why the hell did i do that for?! so why don't you put all these things as secondary and put God first..? because only in God, all the rewards are eternal.
and i took the wrong approach to evangelism, i shed some light of God into people's life but the analogy is that sometimes people's hearts are so hardened all they do is to slam their doors right in your face, so I was discouraged. but this is like really selfish and all and perhaps i got my starting point all wrong all i wanted to do was to expand this church expand expand expand which is not even right...you got to love the people first. love and care for them in this christian capacity, praying for them, taking prayer requests because they face difficulties and they need you to help intercede for them.
i talked to miss chua yesterday at 7.00 am cos she wanted to see us all for chem consult and i've never seen such a dedicated chemistry teacher before. she's the sabbaticals teacher she's fierce in the auditorium but i'm going to dispel all the bad impressions people have of her! wah she's cool i swear you know she analysed all our chem papers, sorted them out into the topics from redox and stoichiometry all the way to group VII and put our scores against the total score of each topic so to let us see which topic we are really lousy at, or things we need to work on. she wrote notes to us telling us our general mistakes and things like that, for me i have imba alot of careless mistakes! and she sought us out individually to talk to us about our paper and talk in general. and it's really cool cos she advised me on my future and how i should really be seriously considering my course of study, WHICH STILL ELUDES ME AFTER A LONG TIME, cos if i know of what i want to do, i can actually apply for scholarships because while the really prestigious ones are not going to give a hoot about me i already know that, there will be boards that will be ready to offer me something. which gave me some glimmers of hope and things like that i really hope that God will shed some light into this really big distraction of mine...):
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thursday:
i told shijun about the top unnecessary fact about how 2500 people left-handers get killed each year for using a machine made for right-handers and he was like OKAY (big deal face) and replied with " you know i think more right handers get killed each year for using a machine made for right-handers." which made sense and shijun and yng tyng are VERY VERY VERY FUNNY. along with ji hao and wilson heee heee i spend all my energy laughing at them and trying to keep the bell on my wallet quiet. -.-
and i got called down during chem lecture "hmm can i have yu li from 08s6q" and was used as the chicken to warn all the monkeys (sha ji jing hou) to do their lecture exercises. because i was too honest and i told her that the exercise slipped my mind and apologised really nicely LET GO AND LET LIVE you know. and what is the probability of finding a person who has done the exercise even?!
