....which is what i do alot all the time and it's really starting to lose its purpose. every day i see less and less meaning in the blind and never ending rush to complete things when i stop to think about it.but when there's nothing you can do about it after the transient pausing time you use to think about such issues, it leaves a very disgruntled soul behind. harness your motivation and converting them into useful energy is easy to imagine, extremely hard to implement, because we are stuck in this vicious cycle of circumstances tying us down and undermining our enthusiasm. spirit of joy helps me alot most of the time but seriously while nothing screws up majorly in my life at night i sometimes think that it's so hard to prepare ourselves to just engage in a proper conversation with people, surviving lessons, cca, worrying about myself, and each day i get to survive without losing a friend or losing a limb or losing any matter seems like something that stems from a stroke of luck and i thank God for the fluke.
