i don't usually blog about what goes on in church wholesale, but i really liked this one. whenever i try to imagine the intimacy between us and God, that's what that goes through my mind. God is revered, but He isn't scary and whatever it is there shouldn't be terror, only respect, friendship and closeness.
anyway, march is drawing to a close, april with easter/good friday holidays, council elections, april fool, it won't be a hard to get past the month. i've never blogged about this, but i'm scared of may. most of the time i try not to think about it and bury myself in practice, but every now and then sporadically it haunts me and nags at me even in the midst of studying that it keeps making me take time just to let the thought die off, or sing/tap until i feel like i haven't backslided. as a matter of fact, i'm not so noble to think of player's glory and pride, sometimes all i really want is to run away. i don't want to be the one who disappoints and eventually causes the memory be stuck with us like a black splotch on a pristinely white piece of paper. like WAH PIANG WHAT A PESSIMIST, but at times like these it's so hard to keep hoping that oh it'll get better when i can't even see where i'm going. I hope in the Lord i guess, but I don't think I worked hard enough to deserve special grace for this.
and I NEED TO STUDY EFFECTIVELY, but oh wells tomorrow will be a beautiful sunday and i'll CARPE DIEM and chiong finish before monday.
