yesterday's care group was one of the few times i laughed so hard till my sides hurt and teared, which was cathartic and yes credits to charades and the team who had to do forfeit (: we engaged in this really long prayer, during which i guess i was pretty damn distracted cos i didn't know what to pray for and so on, but it was so queer you know, halfway throughout i felt compelled to pray for the care group so i rattled off.....which felt like some sort of empowerment.
and i keep thinking of the topic on communities, how the pseudo community and every thing works..no doubt i love my friends and company now in class and most of the time it's as if we have a checklist that constantly renews itself once something is accomplished, but it's so hard to imagine what happens in the future when we no longer share something in common. the future scares me, but everyone knows that we have to keep moving on. last year the seniors were in our position now, but now the next phase of life beckons, and they split up, and move on. time passes and we lose things and relationships get washed away like words written on sand with branches....and maybe there will come a day when we only form communities just because we are creatures who need to be around people, which is really, such a saddening fact.
i didn't get to see seniors, tho i was expecting to see them after gp whom..i'm not really close to actually, but it's nice seeing them in their respective post as life because it's so hard to get such chances in the future. but for now i'm just really glad that i still have half a year to go, to redeem myself etc.
