i spent my morning fixing my blogskin, haha if time was money i'll very much be closer to bankruptcy. and i added links too, unless you specifically told me you don't want to be linked it should be there but anyway it's for people who come to my blog for links cos i can remember links by heart anyway. I like the header picture though it's from heiko...something something.com haha it's at the bottom of the side bar. and oh yes check out Fonts for Peas; the world is filled with nice people with spontaneous handwriting.
promos are over and the school year is just about to end in..4 weeks? the year has been a blur, well, perhaps cos I live 10 weeks to 10 weeks. I regard a term as a new chapter of the year, and I convince myself that the next term gets better every time the previous one screws up. We never thought we could go through all the stuff like promos, block tests, SPAs and the like, but we did went through it anyway. I mean, not like the time continuum will make an exception for you, and since you are reading this, you probably are still alive, half-alive at least. :D
I don't know if I have been in HC long enough to judge my takeaways, because after all the time I'm here is only a quarter of the time I spent in MG. But at least one thing I got was a bigger picture of how the world cookie crumbles, and the good thing was that the acquirement of the knowledge wasn't through the hard way. I saw how people fall in and out of love, saw how people get obsessed and addicted with love; saw how people get hurt, and ended up letting it proliferate out of proportion; I saw how people become crushed and tested under extreme pressure (work, friends, grades...); people losing the ability to be able to pursue their passion; and cos sometimes I observe pretty well, I saw the struggles, and the self-doubt people go through. Now it's not as if I didn't go through devastation or struggles, it was just that it was always either work related -i mean, how long can it last, or self-inflicted, that since I was thesource, I was the healer.
I constantly remind myself to thank God for pain..well, the first thing I do is to bemoan and complain how unbearable it gets. but then again pain made me appreciate people alot more, made me learn my lessons, and made me alot less complacent. I thank God that the grief that was bundled to it was sufficient to make me learn my lessons but not enough to for me to be mired in negativity for too long; I thank God for the fine balance of optimism and pessimism in my life, such that the positive things in life got to manifest in itself, while the bad fades into oblivion after a while, after serving its purpose of lessons. I thank God for enough darkness, that I may learn to appreciate the rare glimmers of light.
I thank God for my class as well, I mean okay we aren't high and loud like at the start of the year, most of the time we are sedentary, sluggishzzz sometimes (LAO REN BING!) and all we do is to hang around and talk, but I like the way we are. There was a period of time when I felt like I didn't fit in, but after a while I found acceptance, very much of it, as if I've been straying, trying to venture out but failing miserably, for the past 20 odd weeks.
oh wells i don't know if i sound very silly for typing all the above, but i'm sure i'm not stupid lah.. i mean there's so many things we could appreciate in our lives. even something as duhh as gravity. like DO YOU KNOW THAT gravity has an infinitesimally small range for life to exist, the probability of it is 1 out of 10^53 parts. which is...0.0000000 (inserts 51 zeros)1%. and we haven't even gone on to computate the likelihood of hydrogen atoms possessing the right energy for nuclear fusion to occur. so, so, marvelous. well i suppose though we don't literally say "thank God for nature laws!" in our daily prayers, we ought to be happy and grateful that we are even alive (they are linked...remotely), through his beautiful creations; how His mercies are renewed everyday. Also when you stop trivialising things, that's when you get your exponential returns, or be rewarded more than what you contributed.
Haha okay and since I spend my time offline complaining and whining and getting bullied, I might as well be a bit less brainless online.
anyway,
May God bless you with enough foolishness, to believe that you can make a difference in the world, So that you can do what others claim cannot be done To bring justice and kindness to all our children and the poor. Amen.
