last night i reached home thinking that i would just need to edit 1 7-11 logo, but when i opened my email i saw that i needed to redo the whole backdrop at the large size of 32 feet by 10 feet... which was crazy big cos the pixels were 20000 by 8000+ and my psd file totalled up to 1.2 gig. i fell asleep halfway while the monster file was saving, and when i woke up i found that my system crashed, ie, the HDD apparently crashed with the message that said system disk invalid. it was 4 am then, and i spammed calls to sandra cos i was so devastated. but brothers ftw and thank God for God, my brother managed to fix it and i recovered my files. for today, i stepped into school at 7.01 am and left at 7.10 am.
for the past few days i've been surviving on critically low sleep, being freshly awake at 4 am either to study or to rush deadlines (think pw) and having only intermitten sleeps while saving files that totalled up to at most 4 hours; incredulously low luck; and cos of that i went through the worst emotional rollercoaster ride since forever. my super human form that lasted me through the 4 days finally tore at the seams this morning, i skipped celebration and stayed home to sleep, which wasn't really successful, cos backdrop wasn't settled.. glen called once and sandra called thrice, and my cramps totally just succeeded hands down in disrupting my sleep.
it was the most energy expending pre holiday ever... but know that when i pick myself up i'll be better than anyone else. but at the end of the day we still ought to see the silver lining, thank you jevon my 8 year friend for listening to me rant, thank you glen for being always always there to listen to me, my mom, my brother, shion yee, yi lin, kaixin... i never really appreciated people, but i learnt it the hard way, so thank you. (:
and we got to let go and let live, because perhaps it isn't too smart to cling on to something that really doesn't matter anymore.
