okay anyway before ct session i was being the self-entertaining self and playing with the spoilt door handle which amused me to some extent (must be boring physics' lecture fault) so a very fascinated me decided to exclaim "OH THIS DOOR HANDLE IS SO COOL IT CAN TURN 360 DEGREES!" thinking that probably only shion yee heard me cos we were the only people around.. BUT NO glen's classmates so happened to walk past and they totally gave me the what-the-hell-are-you-doing-that's-so-retarded face and snickering when they acknowledged my presence.
SO. EMBARRASSING.
and kaixin didnt help much when i narrated the story to her...
"ay it's ok lah. you do retarded stuff all the time anyway." that's comforting to hear -.-
school is totally stretching me to the limits and draining all my energy away.. i had to fight to keep myself awake during chemistry. all i do nowadays is trying to keep my spirits high enough to last me through the day and meeting crappy deadlines at the expense of the quality of my work (WHICH SUCKS BY THE WAY). there's no time to get pensive, contemplative over issues that boggle me; ponder upon things that tug at my heartstrings cos the helplessness makes my heart grow even colder. choosing to ignore them all probably is the easier way out, and perhaps the only way i can make it out alive.
i had 2 hours of piano today, which was utterly confusing i swear. bach's fugue was in c sharp major, and i got cross-eyed figuring out the double sharps and i got psyched to shift everything up by 1 semitone for britten's nocturne when there was no accidentals at all.
yesterday was dsa auditions for co and harry KILLED THE PERCUSSIONIST bet his confidence level and self esteem hit rock bottom and went past the layers of earth already. we made him play the xylophone part for da di hui chun (...) when it's not actually a pre requisite to be able to read notes to be in percussion. ah wells the guy was nice and uhm. Christian (: haha.
